Tuesday, December 28, 2021

Exhausted From The Holiday

10:03 p.m. December 27, 2021. We finished with our last Christmas celebration of the season tonight. It was nothing like last year. We weren't alone, we spent time with family and friends, we invited people into our home on Christmas day. It was a bittersweet holiday season. I'm laying in bed utterly exhausted. Even my bones are tired.

We've been on the go daily since Thanksgiving. I'm all the things on this night. I'm sure all of those feelings are exacerbated by being tired. Regardless, all of the feelings are catching up to me. From extreme happiness to realizing for fortunate we are to be able to gather with our families, it's all there. But on this night, I don't want to talk with anyone. I told my husband I need some time to myself. I'm peopled out, even the prospect of leaving the house seems tiring. 

I'm unsure if this is an after affect from the pandemic or if it's just me. After pretty much being a hermit for the last 20 months, I'm not used to being amongst groups of people for an extended period of time. Oddly enough I was fine when we were in Chicago, the third largest city in the US. No issues then, but the past six days have done me in.