Monday, September 5, 2016

Can I Have More Time Please?

Time. It's the cruelest joke of all. Time is constantly working against us. As I've grown older my birthday wish each year is for more hours in a day....or at least the ability to not need sleep. There's never enough time. Never enough time in every day, never enough time to do absolutely everything I want. I never realized that this was a sore subject for me until I was in the middle of an argument with my husband.

We were arguing where to go for Labor Day weekend (that post will be up was QUITE the adventure!) and my husband threw out the line "but don't you wish we had more time? Shouldn't we wait to go when we have more time?" I stomped my foot (I've been taking cues from my four year old) and replied back "when will we have more time? We never have enough time to begin with so let's make the most of the time we DO have." "Fine," he said back. Clearly I had come out on top in this argument, yet I was still bothered by my own words.

So often I get overwhelmed by all that needs done and think 'I don't have enough time to do it all.' As I sit here reflecting on the whirlwind weekend and the crazy week ahead, my words are swirling in my head. "Make the most of the time we do have." I'll never be able to get more time. I can re-arrange my time so I can have more time to do things I love, but it's not like that time waits for later. Once it passes time is gone, no matter how we spend it.

The more I think about it the more it drives me crazy. Maybe it's an age thing. When I was younger I had no issues thinking 'someday I'll do ____.' Now I feel like I must do (insert whatever word here) now, before more time passes. Maybe it's a mom thing. The whole time issue never hit until I had my third kid and any sense of "extra time" that I felt flew out the window. Moms have soooo much to do daily that any mom I've met is very time conscious.

While my head is still swirling and the time issue nags at me, I realize I need to be done with these thoughts because time is passing. It's nearly 2:00 p.m., which means nap time will end soon enough and I wanted to catch a few zzz's myself before the minis wake up. That is how I'm making the most of my time today.....while I fully realize that at the end of the day I'll still ask for more time.